love it.

The War.

the city is at war, the young and rich, i dont give a shiiitt ;)

designer friends.



if you got money you get in for free,

get on your knees, and get the money and run.



hun, you fucked up.

Together.

the adventures brought us together,

yes we get in shit together,

yes we are always together,

yes we do drugs together,

yes we are sisters,

and yes we are bestfriends.

Bestfriends?

yes yes she would be my bestfriend that i have ever been
so lucky to find in this lovley world we live in, she bring a great
big smile to my face when i see her. i will love her forever,
bestfriends?
yes yes we are.

when i try to close my eyes, your face flashes throught my mind.
when i wake up your smile fade to everyone else in this world.
i hurt myself more than you could ever hurt me.
would life be easier if i didnt know you? or would i be looking
for a missing peice still? the times we have had together i will never
forget.
last night might have been hell for me, but when you grab my hand,
and say i love you and whats wrong, i know that something inside you cares.
my body will never care how my well being is.

a drop in the ocean

A drop in the ocean
A change in the weather
I was praying that you and me might end up together
Its like wishing for rain as i stand in the desert
But i'm holding you closer than most,
Cause you are my heaven.
I dont wanna waste the weekend
If you dont love me,
pretend a few more hours,
then its time to goes my train rolls down the east coast I wonder how you keep warm
Its too late to cry
To broken to move on
And still i cant let you be
Most nights i hardly sleepDon't take what you dont need from meIts just a drop in the ocean
A change in the weather
I was praying that you and me might end up together
Its like wishing for rain as i stand in the desert
But i'm holding you closer than most,
Cause you are my heaven.
Misplaced trust and old friendsNever counting regrets
But a grace of god i do not rest at allIn new England as the leaves change
The last excuse ill claim, i was a boy who loved a women like a little girl
And still i cant let you beMost nights i hardly sleep
Dont take what you dont need from me
Its just a drop in the ocean
A change in the weather
I was praying that you and me might end up together
Its like wishing for rain as i stand in the desert
But i'm holding you closer than most,
Cause you are my,
Heaven doesnt seem far away anymore no no
Heaven doesnt seem far away
Heaven doesnt seem far away anymore no no
Heaven doesnt seem far awayA drop in the ocean
A change in the weatherI was praying that you and me might end up together
Its like wishing for rain as i stand in the desert
But i'm holding you closer than most,
Cause you are my heaven.
You are my heaven

for the day after.

the r e a s o n is y o u, to c h a n g e who i used to be, i am not a p e r f e c t person,
i d i d n t mean to do those things to y o u, a r e a s o n to start over n e w, i found a reason to
s h o w, a side of m e you didnt know, for a l l that i do..

my h e a r t

I ♥ AUSTIN THIESSEN
I ♥ LUKE WALSH
I ♥ JUSTICE LEIBEL
I ♥ DANIELLE MATHIEU
I ♥ SHAWN RIVARD
I ♥ DAVID KUKLER
I ♥ STEPH MORIC
I ♥ NATE LEIBEL
I ♥ RACHEL RIVARD

it may be gay, but it`s truee.

"hello beautiful, how`s it going?"

bff.

thats love.

i love you nate leibel,

your one of my bestfriends,

i wish you would care more about me,

and think of all the stuff that i have sacrafised for you and did for you,

no matter what i will always

be there for you, and you will have a special part in my life.

your like the brother i never had

and always wanted,

i love you nathaniel markas leibel.

my bestfriend.

8635335 - matt adams cell.

luls

JRIVARD & AFORD !

how cute.

Once apon a time there were these two girls, and they were bestfriends,
even though they were different people, they got along great, they
hungout with different people, it didnt matter cause they would always be
there for one another no matter what. alexandra hangs out with dirty natives,
and jessie hangs out with the clean people even though jessie is native too.
jessie and alexandra will be bestfriends though everything no matter what,
cause alexandra rules the world, so she thinks.
lawls.
Justine lee rivard & Alexandra rae ford = FOREVERR

bestfriend

al3xanDra f4d owns the world.

throw my heart up

lovee

run it back with the original flavor

the offspring

There’s a moment in time

And it’s stuck in my mind

Way back when we were just kids

Cause your eyes told the tale

Of an act of betrayal

I kn3w that somebody did

Oh, waves of time

Seem to wash away

The scenes of our crimes

But for you this never ends

Can you stay strong?

Can you go on?

A rose that won’t bloom

Winter’s kept you

Don’t waste your whole life trying

To get back what was taken away

need thatt

do it Jessie !
ask niko to hangout this weekend / doneee

get make-up brushes / doneee

eyeliner, pencil / doneee

STRIGHTENER AHHHH!

shirts

respect mom more. / getting there

crush in

luke walsh, i think i am starting to like you

why, cause your the only one that isent all bullshit

i just think i have a crush on you baby

love you

drama can go to hell mofucker

i am so sick of all the bullshit drama that happens

in high school the thing is it will get worst, i cant wait to get my N

and just get the fuck away from everything.
i hate mbss its so fucking gay everyone is inlove with drama and sex like they think there
mature when really there not at all like there the ones that need to grow the fuck up
and get a reality check like holy shit like your going to look back at this and be sick
to your stumic of how you act and look, like stop being a dick it was funny get the fuck over it like honestly yeah i made a mistake and i said sorry so there the end, stop fucking
dragging it on man.
"peace love respect"

my life plan

sunday to sunday 22 29: daminacan republic :) ratata<3
monday 30: air port, 3:30, hotal sandman, driving back from vancover, home
tuesday 31: school, no plans
wednesday 1: april fools, sam pilon steph moric, stephs, crystals bday "crazy cat women"
thursday 2: sam pilon steph moric, stephs crib, "crazy cat women" pizza and ranch
friday 3: steph moric renay grieg nik smith joe vogel even dudsick mik maloff wes geisler tanner brown jordan greenal tony talon ridsdale the "it", movies fast and furious, blazed, renay slept over, got in shittt.
saturday 4: renay, a&w, willy` cd gun cigars mcdonald cup docks pipe swimming, steph moric
sunday 5: cleaning room, steph moric later, church saw joe truent
monday 6: debbie, rhonda, tammy, kailey, amelia, come over, ryan and niko drama. rachel's a CUNT :) hills premire x2, austin saying hi alot today : ] luke asking to make out. science... homework.
tuesday 7: CLEAN MY ROOM, went to the gym with steph.
wednesday 8: fucked up, talked on the phone with nate while walking to each other, stephs dad hit her, bitcccchhhh.
thursday 9: helen gorman party, steph, alex picked us up. steph chealse renay beata stephw and other, slept at renays, BEST SANDWITCHES EVER. chocolate muffins and nutella.
friday 10: DID FUCKING NOTHING. PISSED.
no schooooool
saturday 11: amelia & kaileys baby shower @ our house, walked to westbank, pictures, spencer & nathan, saw dannyk wesg and some other fag, bought house bunny, step brother, meet the spartens sunday 12: church, saw kevin k & family, joe t, 2 asian babies, haha. EASTER, aunty tammy's dinner
monday 13: no schoooool, megan slept over, played wii, went to wally mart, got eye liner, nikos birthday (L)
tuesday 14: back to school, cnb saw jon! hugged him, and ran around the school, devyn and alexandra, niko didnt come to school, got my foot soked in the river haha.
native room at cnb.
wednesday 15: steph came over after school, pictures, DADS AN ASSHOLE, "dont you have your own home!" fuck you. TALKED TO JON! i love you, i have lukes ring <3 style="COLOR: rgb(102,0,204)"> / breakfast with niko & alex
friday 17: youth, nate kissed my hand, got in a fight with him, but its all good, went to kelly o's with courtney & ashley, chantelles party, luke having his arm around me, hugging me all the time, sitting on the couch together, niko hugging me and stuff, driving with shanleigh, shae, danielle
saturday 18: HANNAH MONTANA with shanleigh harris & danielle mathieu then shanleighs house, stuck out and got in shit!
sunday 19: got in shit, went to the gym with steph, watched twilight
monday 20: school, chillin at , talked to nate on the phone, came to see me out side
tuesday 21: renay came over, went to westbank, JB, robertj samh jordanl kyleg brooksc nikog mike adamk, BAKEDDD, lit the fild on fire, haha, RENAY SLEPT IN
wednesday 22: didnt go to school, SKYLAR KYRE, nate took my 5 dollars, FUCKED US OVER SO BAD! nate hugged hannah lamb! nate beat me up in la room.
thursday 22: boxed nate, broken nose, nate drove me to the walk in, then left me, got zray and then picked me up, and drove me home, renay again haha, had to say i love u nate
friday 23: xray, went to school dirty, went to th bank with nate, gave him 100 dollars!
went to the docks, walked home, went in the lake, went to youth, taklked to brennan and nate before it started, nate went to hannahs! fuck you bitch, WROTE AN ILL RAP SONG, fuck shanleigh and he bullshit, and danielle, shae and nate, asshole,, saw lukew brandont mattp logan jordan.. DANIELLE FORGOT HER STRIGHTENER FUCKKK
saturday 24: renay
sunday 25: renay and steph
monday 26: lock down at school, under the desk with luke austin and katie, bus driver IS A CUNt, talked to me.i told luke i liked him :) steph and i went for sushi together, i love you steph so much!
renay got her shit, i hate her mom WNATA BITCH FUCK YOU. went to the doctors and got my xrays and MY NOSE IS BROKEN and have to get surgery hahaha called nate and told him he said he iam going to kill himself and i am so sorry.. haha old man about lesbians and gays hahaha! fuck.
lesbians are hot i would get in the middleof that and lick alittle and bit hahahahahaha best person ever by far, i love you lukeeeee. <3>

ratata <3

puta canta
ocean breeze
responsiblity seaking
all in clusive
tanning mo fucker
light sun beaming
gay kids
fricken spring break.

learn to be quiet

you make me shake, just love when you say everything is okay,
when clearly its not, i just love when you said calm down, when your the
one that works me up, you say show respect, i say respect will come from me
when you show it aswell,
dont presume i can be perfect cause clearly your not anything close to perfect eather,
i wouldnt be talking, you can lose all respect fom someone just by listening to them
bitch about everything, its really pathedic, dont down load shit, well then how do you want me
to spend 19 hours with people i hate and really dont care for at all,
and dont tell me not to be selfish when you the one that just created hell for me,
i just love when you make me shake,
thanks for everything

01/30/09

when the bus stops, you get off,
you walk down an ice hill, get help down,
you walk in the door, you say hello, you walk down the 20 stairs,
so go into a bedroom, so sit down, start a converstion, say hi to hannah,
go see the rob, game gutiar hero, lay on a boy,
have dinner, go to the truck, go up a hill, pick him up,
go to ktown, blaze, trip out and get screamers, drive around,
drop off at hockey arena, parking lot at eb games =2 hours,
chill, petro parking lot, mcdonalds, boy passes out, fuck off,
home, and then sleep, wake up to living hell.

night`s awake

awake through the shadow`s of the night, eyes wide open, starring into the night`s winds and darkness, once now was light now only clouds of darkness.

the game

and i`m grindin` until i`m tired

they say, "you ain`t grindin` until you tired"

so i`m grindin` with my eyes wide

looking to find a way through the day

a life for the night

dear lord, you`ve took so many of my people

but i`m wonderin` why

you haven`t taken my life?

like what the hell am i doing right?

my life

i need some meditation, so i can leave my people

they askin` why? why did john lennon leave the beatles?

answer my question before this bullet leave this desert eagle

we are not the same, i am a martian

so approach my phantom doors with caution

tou see then 24`s spinnin`? i earned then

and i ain`t no preacher, but here`s my erick sermon

so eat this black music, and tell me how it tastes, now

and fuck jessie jackon` cause it ain`t about race, now

sometimes i think about my life with my face down

then i see my sons and put on the kanya smile

my life

damn, i know his momma`s proud

and sience you helped me sell my dream, we can share my momma now

and like MJB, "no more drama" now

livin` the good life, me and common and common ground

i spit crack and niggers could drive it outta town

my life.

you sold my dream

i wanta live again, just for you, anything i can do to make it up to you.

3:06 am

i know your face like the back of my hand, i know this place like the back of my hand, my hands get cold, please dont lose contol out there, i know your with me, say that your with me, my hands, out there

look to the sky

baby don`t feel my pain just smile back.

resort to drugs

take me away like i over dosed on cocaine;

buliding castles in the sand

giving my blood to you, giving you my heart to you, giving my body to you, giving my soal to you,
giving you me.

choking on life

i` m in to deep, and i`m six feet under now.
i can`t sit back no more, it didn`t take that long to die,
i`m not with my head, i`am now going under.

take a step back

you think things can ever go wrong now cause you have found love
and the world now is perfect, and the world can stop spinning out of control?
well what happens if you never find love?
will you die by yourself, and never be able to live with a smile across your face again,
love dosent have to be with someone,
love is not always on earth, look higher up,
close your eyes and imagin heaven, imagin god, the one that made you and place you on this
earth, when you find in your heart and start believing that love
is not always on earth but its in heaven and in god hands.
your never alone, god will always be one step ahead of you and guiding you through your life
every step of the way,
he has always loved you, and always will, only if believe that he is the one
that will always be beside you and will always listen to you.

deep in your eyes

when you see the world behind my eyes

will you wanta keep livin?

i ask myself, why was it me that was was put on this earth?

why it was me that could have a family,

and not be on the streets?

i now look behind my eyes and see that,

my life has to be lived every day to every second to the fullest

and not be taken away from me,

i ani`t livin with no drama, iam living for jesus christ,

why not die today, why not?

if god didn`t love everyone the world would have ended by now,

people need to grow up and see that the world is god`s work of art he painted for each

and everyone one of us,

so now look behind someone else`s eyes and give them a hand up, and tell them to reach to god

or would u rather have world war 3 or the world end?

its all in my hands and behind your eyes now.