01/30/09

when the bus stops, you get off,
you walk down an ice hill, get help down,
you walk in the door, you say hello, you walk down the 20 stairs,
so go into a bedroom, so sit down, start a converstion, say hi to hannah,
go see the rob, game gutiar hero, lay on a boy,
have dinner, go to the truck, go up a hill, pick him up,
go to ktown, blaze, trip out and get screamers, drive around,
drop off at hockey arena, parking lot at eb games =2 hours,
chill, petro parking lot, mcdonalds, boy passes out, fuck off,
home, and then sleep, wake up to living hell.

night`s awake

awake through the shadow`s of the night, eyes wide open, starring into the night`s winds and darkness, once now was light now only clouds of darkness.

the game

and i`m grindin` until i`m tired

they say, "you ain`t grindin` until you tired"

so i`m grindin` with my eyes wide

looking to find a way through the day

a life for the night

dear lord, you`ve took so many of my people

but i`m wonderin` why

you haven`t taken my life?

like what the hell am i doing right?

my life

i need some meditation, so i can leave my people

they askin` why? why did john lennon leave the beatles?

answer my question before this bullet leave this desert eagle

we are not the same, i am a martian

so approach my phantom doors with caution

tou see then 24`s spinnin`? i earned then

and i ain`t no preacher, but here`s my erick sermon

so eat this black music, and tell me how it tastes, now

and fuck jessie jackon` cause it ain`t about race, now

sometimes i think about my life with my face down

then i see my sons and put on the kanya smile

my life

damn, i know his momma`s proud

and sience you helped me sell my dream, we can share my momma now

and like MJB, "no more drama" now

livin` the good life, me and common and common ground

i spit crack and niggers could drive it outta town

my life.

you sold my dream

i wanta live again, just for you, anything i can do to make it up to you.

3:06 am

i know your face like the back of my hand, i know this place like the back of my hand, my hands get cold, please dont lose contol out there, i know your with me, say that your with me, my hands, out there

look to the sky

baby don`t feel my pain just smile back.

resort to drugs

take me away like i over dosed on cocaine;

buliding castles in the sand

giving my blood to you, giving you my heart to you, giving my body to you, giving my soal to you,
giving you me.

choking on life

i` m in to deep, and i`m six feet under now.
i can`t sit back no more, it didn`t take that long to die,
i`m not with my head, i`am now going under.

take a step back

you think things can ever go wrong now cause you have found love
and the world now is perfect, and the world can stop spinning out of control?
well what happens if you never find love?
will you die by yourself, and never be able to live with a smile across your face again,
love dosent have to be with someone,
love is not always on earth, look higher up,
close your eyes and imagin heaven, imagin god, the one that made you and place you on this
earth, when you find in your heart and start believing that love
is not always on earth but its in heaven and in god hands.
your never alone, god will always be one step ahead of you and guiding you through your life
every step of the way,
he has always loved you, and always will, only if believe that he is the one
that will always be beside you and will always listen to you.

deep in your eyes

when you see the world behind my eyes

will you wanta keep livin?

i ask myself, why was it me that was was put on this earth?

why it was me that could have a family,

and not be on the streets?

i now look behind my eyes and see that,

my life has to be lived every day to every second to the fullest

and not be taken away from me,

i ani`t livin with no drama, iam living for jesus christ,

why not die today, why not?

if god didn`t love everyone the world would have ended by now,

people need to grow up and see that the world is god`s work of art he painted for each

and everyone one of us,

so now look behind someone else`s eyes and give them a hand up, and tell them to reach to god

or would u rather have world war 3 or the world end?

its all in my hands and behind your eyes now.